I had no idea new life seasons would also require learning how to Rest in new ways. Its my mind, not my schedule, I must now teach to refrain.
Alicia Keys slinks through the outdoor speakers of my favorite mountainside coffee shop. She sings of A Womans Worth as I sit baking in the afternoon sun. Ive waited months for a day like today - strapless dress long enough to puddle on the ground beneath me, hair now piled atop my head in that messy bun that whispers of summers freedoms. Ill be sunburned by 3:00. How odd that I feel most comfortable in my own skin with a slight sunburn and a long, strapless dress.
I talked to Taralyn - she wanted to know if I was writing.
I talked to my Mom - she wanted to know if I was writing.
Ive spent the day in the backs and forths of my mind - not writing, not resting. Stories and characters swirl - Im distracted. I tried to listen to a podcast sermon - couldn't concentrate. I tried going for some lunch at a local favorite. Doug, oddly, was there too - working remotely for a consulting client. I found him on the patio after spotting his vintage beast in the parking lot. I sat a moment admiring his skin then grabbed chicken salad to-go and waved him good bye, feeling the pure delight of a woman happening unexpectedly upon her lover. While I walked away his eyes followed. I tossed my hair in a manner which my daily life rarely allows. I heard him chuckle in reply. I didn't drive away without taking a sec to draw a pink lipstick heart on his drivers window. A woman stared, as if I were doing something illicit.
Refrain from what is necessary. Refrain from what is necessary.